Hesitate

Yo Minna! Another late post from me lol~

I'm start hesitating to cosplay.
Not that I'm stop wanting to become one.
But these questions keep popping in my mind:
a. will I be a good cosplayer?
b. am I good enough to become one?
c. How should I start it?
d. After preparing the things, what should I do next?

Ah~ how confusing
And I keep making excuses about this (T_T)
Anyone reading this post can you tell me how to start cosplay?
There will be HelloFest on Nov 10 (This Sunday)
Planning to do costreet initially but I don't think I'll make it on time
Haven't prepared anything and my schedule already full this week @_@
No more anime / Japanese Culture events till the end of this year
Planning to do photo shoot but still can't stand being in front of camera @_@
Doushiyou?!

Just finished watching Dangan Ronpa
What a great anime! I understand now why people want to cosplay as Enoshima Junko
She is adorable <3
Still, I like Kirigiri Kyoko hehe ~ <3
She's just... stunning! <3
Lol ~ xD

Anw I'm so happy because the school's admin n marketing ppl praise my eye makeup =w=
One told me to use lens, and I am planning to learn how to use it xD
Long way to go, but slowly I might reach this dream I believe in <3
I'm just praying the best for all of you <3
And I really hope my dream to become cosplay came true <3

Til next time, honey stars ^o^

Dare To Dream High

Hey Guys, I know I post 2 posts at the same day.

But I just can’t wait to post this post! (lol)

So, tomorrow’s my last day of exam and I haven’t study much.

It’s not that I don’t care, but I just want to blogging atm lol ~

Oh! And I’m gonna posts pictures (by me) and videos (well, mostly youtube) soon!

See, I’m getting serious about blogging XD So excited!!

Let’s move on to the main topic.

In my last post, I’ve said that I have a dream that I believe in and I’m willing to work hard to achieve that dream.

Do you guys have dreams that you believe in?

If you do, then you would know how I feel! xD

Well, what do you think that dream is?

FYI, it’s not an academicals dream that the parents demanded.

My dream is to be… a cosplayer.

Okay, I know this might sound silly.

Because may be some of you did not see cosplay that highly.

Or maybe some of you think that to be a cosplay is an easy thing to do.

Now I’m telling you that for me, becoming a cosplayer is not an easy thing to do.

Well, I’m facing the normal problem that you might be facing also.

My parents do not allow me to do this cosplay thing… at all…

Be it to wear contact lens, buy costume or wigs or pallets (makeup) or any other things related to cosplay.

You might think this is an easy problem to deal with, but for me, this is the first time I need to go against my parents’ will to do what I really want to do.

Feeling Free

Hey guys, it’s been a while since my last post.

So, just now I decided to delete all my blogs and pages, and focusing only on this page.

Why? Well I just think now I need to be serious on what I want to do.

I am currently seeing a therapist right now.

No, I’m not sick or ill or suffer anything that needs to be cure.

Well I do, but not that serious you know…

At first I was just accompanying my siblings, well, there’re things happened.

But then I was curious and the therapist offer to check on me.

Then I think, why not? Maybe I will find something new about myself.

Why do you think I want to take the therapist?

Well, let’s rewind to a month ago.

Remember when I post about “The Guardian Angel”?

I was very depressed at that time. Why? I also didn’t know.

I just felt the world so heavy that I could hardly breath.

I felt that the world reject me, and the wish I hold inside of me.

I feel that I’m alone, that nobody is there for me when I need someone to talk to.

And so, that “Guardian Angel” came and lifted a little portion of my loneliness.

But that did not solve the burden on my heart.

That feeling continues until yesterday.